Spending hours crawling through sites trying to find one that stocks a particular pair of boots... eventually finding one that isn't sold out... ordering them... and getting the wrong fecking pair delivered.

 OMFG, that would be so painfully annoying!

I hate that I am an absolute perfectionist, I am always striving for excellence even if I fall short. It is really stressful, and I feel hateful of myself and ashamed if I ever make a mistake or even think I have . My partner had a psych who told him he had to try to be average - just good enough and no more - and not strive for anything else. Thinking of that makes me feel sick and desperate.

The fact that when my brother wants to pay attention to my dog he's all nice and sweet, then an hour later he'll be all pissed off about something and yell at her for trying to get his attention.

She's very smart for a dog, but still... she doesn't understand that he doesn't want her around him, and yelling at her like she's a person and threatining to hit her or toss her across the room doesn't accomplish anything.

 the farce that is my love life.

Adwoa:

 the farce that is my love life.

+1

Took the stereo out of my Jeep, and installed it in this other Jeep. Worked for about 10 minutes and then stopped. Redid everything... Still doesn't work.

+95$ to my pocket isn't bad though.

 My damned hormones that are refusing to allow me to have a balanced emotional response to ANYTHING today... 

or it could be my ex-wife's uncanny ability to say the wrong thing at the wrong time... When I am bitching about being lonely and being tired of being on my own.. PLEASE refrain from stating how good we were together. Even it if were true....  rubbing my face in the fact that the fuckfest of emotional retardation was the last long-term relationship I had doesn't help NONE.  Especially when the one-who-got-away keeps posting the most adorable pictures of her incredibly beautiful partner and three kids (a boy and twin girls).  To add to the shit tsunami... Friday is the 26th anniversary of my father's sudden death. - yes.. I was 15 and JUST getting to know him. so my abandonment issues are on steroids this week.  My loneliness is a raw throbbing nerve that everyone around me keeps stepping on and my fucking menstrual cycle is making me want to rip out my uterus.

: crawling under a rock :

A football player at the High School my mom works at found a one day old kitten and gave it to her.  Its all black and super tiny.  We just delivered the last kitten we raised from the last abandoned litter this morning to his new home.  Here we go again. 

There will be pictures later. 

Ambertimestwo:

A football player at the High School my mom works at found a one day old kitten and gave it to her.  Its all black and super tiny.  We just delivered the last kitten we raised from the last abandoned litter this morning to his new home.  Here we go again. 

I'm having trouble understanding what happened but I take having a new kitten is a bad thing?

And Adwoa...hugs.

jellybean:

Ambertimestwo:

A football player at the High School my mom works at found a one day old kitten and gave it to her.  Its all black and super tiny.  We just delivered the last kitten we raised from the last abandoned litter this morning to his new home.  Here we go again. 

 

I'm having trouble understanding what happened but I take having a new kitten is a bad thing?

And Adwoa...hugs.

Yes... Its incredibly stressful/expensive/time consuming raising kittens.  We were raising a litter of 4, and two weeks into that we found another 4 kittens, that needed to be bottle fed every couple hours.   We found homes for all of them, and just let the last one go to its new home today.  We had to wait longer because it has gone to my friend that just moved over the weekend and was getting the house organized and set up.  The same day we let the last one go.. another kitten.   I love kittens, don't get me wrong,  I'm a huge animal lover, but I want a break from kittens!  I get attached to all of them, and then we have to give them away and it breaks my heart.  I'm going to try to make the best of this, and keep my self from going insane.  We named him Zero <3

What happened, from what I understand, is that they were practicing football or something today, and one of the players found the kitten in the parking lot, and it was meowing loudly and still had its umbilical cord hanging.  it was all alone.  So the coach told him to take it to the cat lady that works in the maintenance department, and they gave the kitten to my mom, and she brought it home.  

 Ahh I get it. Thanks for explaining.

Ambertimestwo:

What happened, from what I understand, is that they were practicing football or something today, and one of the players found the kitten in the parking lot, and it was meowing loudly and still had its umbilical cord hanging.  it was all alone.

that is horrible :[

Kaitlin N:

ak-47

Gaaaaangster. I'm a little jealous, haha.